Why I'm Not Going To Keep Trying To Keep Up With The Joneses #BLOGMAS

Inpromtu hiatus I know but the last week was really overwhelming and I needed the time for myself, I apologise, but I really do believe in the short time I took a break from blogging I have been feeling a LOT better. Blogging is a super saturated market and I feel that every blogger suffers from some degree of blog envy. Whether it be someone's blog layout, their content or their pictures. Everyone's always chasing this idealised form of "the perfect blog", me included. I read different blogs everyday and I obviously come across some that I really love. But perhaps because I am so into them, when I get back to writing my own I feel a serious pang of inadequacy. Don't get me wrong. I love my blog and I love blogging. But I know that I'm not producing the amazing content that I know I'm capable of producing. My pageviews fluctuate and my photography isn't that great. But I do know I have a passion for blogging and all these things are okay.

I'm a Baby Blogger

Like I said before, there are so many bloggers out there and so many have been blogging for YEARS, I've only been blogging for a little under a year and I only got actively serious about getting out posts in the last few months. You can see that I went from about one post a month to one a week minimum. I know that there's no rush/no one is expecting me to be churning out grade A sponsored post material just yet.

I Can't Change My Content To Fit In

Another thing I've noticed is that I feel like the bloggers that flourish are mainly beauty and fashion based. Don't get me wrong I love both. I just don't get as excited writing  about them. I've tried to do fashion/beauty posts and they just aren't really me. I enjoy reading beauty posts but I love writing about lifestyle and things that are relevant to me a bit more. I've even noticed the posts that tend to get the most views on my blog are the lifestyle ones that I'm really proud of. My Uni Experience, Channel 4 and Not Being Black Enough  are some of my favourite posts and they seem to be the ones other people love as well. When I try to get out content about "my favourite lipliner" or something of that nature. It won't do as well. Also I know I won't be happy with it.

I'm Not The Most Consistent 

I apologise in almost every blogpost for the gap in between posts (including this one)  and I hate it. I feel like I know it's possible for me to get a post up ideally 2-3 times a week so why am I not doing it?! I don't know. I'm busy. I'm also lazy. But admitting the problem is the first step right.

My Blog Doesn't Look Professional

I feel like I never love the layout of my blog, I'm not a HTML specialist and therefore can't create the layout that I truly want. But I know there are ways of going about it. I'm always looking for the perfect layout as if this will upgrade my blog x10. I know it won't. But I just want it to look pretty, okay?

RenBreaux Isn't Perfect. But That's Okay 

I'm okay with not being perfect. I'm also okay with my blog not being perfect. There is time to grow and everything will improve. I plan on blogging for a long time so I can't expect everything to fall into place naturally. I am still going to strive to be the best I can be. But I know I don't have to compare myself to Zoella or someone of her stature just yet. Cause that's just not me.


Ren x